I’ve been reading other blogs lately about how to be patient and to understand where god is taking us. I’ve had this vibe and just wanted to lay everything out on the table and just talk about things. If none of you read this, that’s fine. Just some personal thoughts and feelings i’m going through right now. Any positive feed back would be appreciated (:
As most of you all know, I’m getting married now and my fiance is looking for his police job. If he doesn’t get a police job within 2 years of completion of the police academy, he will lose all certifications and will have to retake the whole academy over.
As expensive that is there is no way financially that we can even think about that right now. I’ve always been told to stay patient and keep praising God in the hallway until he has opened up that one door. As for me, praising isn’t my hard part. It’s staying positive and trying to be patient. Being patient has never come easy and until I begin to be patient nothings gonna happen for the best. I’ve always went on with my normal life saying that “life will get better eventually, it just has to” but always forgetting to put God first into that picture. Seeing now that I need to put God first and do it his way is the best way to get what we’ve always wanted!
I often think about how this job is affecting us as a couple. Is it making us stronger? Or making us a weaker couple? The hard times usually bring the distant couples closer together. Now, we’ve been together for 5 years & we can’t really get much closer. I tell him everything, and him to me. It’s just always in the back of my mind to HELP him strive to find this job or help him look in places he hasn’t yet. It breaks my heart that he hasn’t found this job. He usually is the rock, the person who is always the positive one in the WORST conditions. Lately though, he’s just been down in the dumps and it kills me because i’m just waiting to see God turn this around for the better.
He works in mysterious ways and I sometimes question him. Always wondering when the time is gonna be right. Always asking what about this, or what about that and my favorite word “BUT”. Biggest down fall right there, always putting the ‘but’ in the sentence already thinking the worst.
Everything ALWAYS happens for a reason. I just have to keep and open mind and an open heart and realize we are exactly where we need to be right now. It may rain now, but it isn’t gonna rain forever.
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